I always feel like I'm out of time. Like the world is moving and I'm just staying there. Like everyone is doing something and I'm just trying to figure out what I'm supposed to do, what my purpose is. They all seem to know. They all seem to have it all figured out. I'm the only one that's broken.
I feel like I'm always fighting, I'm always struggling, and it's like I'm in a deep valley and everyone else is up above. They all go so peaceful about it. They know how to live, how to work, how to make it work. And I'm down there fighting, agitated, like a car wheel that is stuck in sand and it turns but it doesn't go anywhere.
I want to go somewhere. I want to make it. I want to be so peaceful, to have a plan and the plan to work and to live. Not just exist or fight, but live. I don't know how to do that. I just wish for someone to give me a hand and pull me up, and to install in me the knowledge to live in harmony. To install in me that peace of heart and mind that makes me constantly know that I am doing well, and that I will always have what I need to take care of myself. I just need a hand, and someone to install that program and override every other program that keeps me in scare and in the "I'll never make it", "I'm not good enough" programs.
I just want out of these programs, and into one that lets me breath. That lets me relax knowing in every cell of my body that I will always have everything I need, that it always comes, and that I constantly have everything I need to live worry free.
I just need someone to pull me up and install these new programs, and to be relaxed, and live.
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