Where Are You All Going?

 

 

Where are you all going,

moving so fast,

while it feels like I'm struggling,

and I am left behind?

How do you all know your purpose,

running to it so fast,

while I'm using the flashlight

to see a road that seems dark?

I feel like I'm in a dream, running

but I can't open my eyes,

like I'm trying to scream,

but no sound is coming out.

Where are you all running so fast,

knowing exactly where you're meant to go,

while I'm barely seeing the light,

and the road seems to just keep going on?

 

 

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Feeling Stuck in a Place

Isn't that just maddening? 

Wondering what are you supposed to be doing,

and who are you supposed to be,

and when are you going to get there? 

Are you supposed to stay, or leave? 

 

You lack the courage to leave 

and fear is getting the best of you, 

and yet you're dying bit by bit 

with every other day that's passing you! 

You feel it gutting you, and you get so mad, 

you wished you had the courage to leave,

to run out of this crazy loop,

to build a new life,

and make it as happy as you see it in your mind.

 

You cry alone in your room, 

or next to them while lying awake,

wishing you had the courage,

to take that leap of faith.

You start to understand yourself, 

and to show some compassion,

you know it's not easy,

and that failing before only

makes this attempt seem even harder.

 

It's not just a trip,

it's deciding your future,

and the heaviness of what that brings

makes you move in confusion.

Sometimes you feel like you're outside,

looking in at your actions,

you'd like to tell yourself to slow down

that you'll be fine regardless.

You can't see it now,

because you're just so confused:

"Where's the road I'm walking on?

Where should I go? I don't know!"

I don't understand

how everyone seem to have it all figured out,

while I'm here planning my next breath,

wishing it won't be my last.

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The Right Decision is NOT Easy

Doing the right thing, taking the right decision, going on the right path is NOT easy.

- A family waited, prayed and fought for years to move to another town with better job possibilities - on the week of the move their hearts were heavy looking at the house they built there, at the lives they built there, and saying goodbye to family, dear people, and the house that was "home" for so many years. 

- A girl waited almost two years to move with her future husband - she couldn't wait to live her life next to him - on the night before the move, she stayed awake crying and looking at all the spots and things in her room that she would never see in the same way - the bed she will never sleep in again, the window on which she will never see the stars anymore, or the other apartment building filed with friends she grew up with

- A woman wished and prayed so much for a better chance on her job which implied moving to another country - when the moment came to make the arrangements she found herself paralyzed with fear, confused and frustrated because she still wanted to make the move, and she couldn't understand where the fear was coming from.

Just because you are doing what is best for you, for your family, for your career, for your future, it DOESN'T mean that it's easy! Fill your heart with hope and your mind with beautiful images of what's to come. Make it as you want it to be - it is your mind creating it, create whatever makes you happy.

Your brain fears the unknown, and since the unknown usually means danger, because you don't know what's coming, your body and mind are trying to keep you safe and make you fearful, so that you choose not to make the move into the unknown. 

But, studies showed that, since your mind doesn't know the difference between real and imaginary, if you imagine how things will go after you make the move, and you imagine them as happy and as beautiful as you want to, your mind will fight you less and less, because they think the step has been taken and things are actually good.

Thank you to everyone who made a donation, and to all the ones who are making donations. You are helping me carry on and give back what I've learned. Thank you 🧡

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