Feeling so down and hopeless. Like there's no tomorrow. Like this is where everything ends. An emptiness inside that takes over your entire being, it drains all your power leaving you so tired, so lonely.
You think that it is absolutely impossible to feel so down and lost when you actually have so much. You have a home to go to, a bed to sleep in, a life partner who doesn't stop showing you how much they love you and how much you mean to them, a family for whom you are so incredibly precious, maybe a great job, maybe some children to whom you are the center of the Universe ... and, yet ... you feel like you have nothing to live for. No hope, no perspective, no life.
How is it possible? How can you have so much and still fell like you have nothing at all? How can you be someone's reason to live when you feel like you can't find your place in your own life? How can you possibly be someone's whole world while you're feeling like there is no room for you in this world?
You still feel like this is too intimate and private to share it with anyone, so you lock yourself in the bathroom, and let the water run over you while you cry your pain. This pain that it squeezes you, it compresses every vain in your body feeling like blood is struggling to run through it, it blocks your air and tightens your stomach, and you feel like you're dying second by second. You cry until there are no more tears left ...
And then, you get up, wash your face, dry up, get dressed and go back into the world where you wish you could belong and keep looking for your place there, your happiness, a little space where you can finally feel at peace. Where you finally feel like you belong, and everything falls into place ... and now you are peaceful, calm, emotionally and mentally stable ... and now you are finally happy. Enjoy this feeling, and hope it will last you forever.
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